For those of you who regularly read my work
over on E-Lites
Vouchers you'll know I write mainly about the electronic cigarette industry,
but that's not always the case.
See, I came across this opportunity and
simply had to contribute a story. A story, that will help someone out there
somewhere.
A long time ago, I suffered a bout of
depression that would pretty much grip my life and shake it to its core
foundation. I had nothing going for me, I had just lost a job and was
desperately unhappy at the one that I had, and also had nothing much to look
forward to in my personal life with the troubles I had going on at home. My
girlfriend had decided she would take a gap year and travel the world, and left
me to fend for us - hardly fair given I had to pay a mortgage in a pretty low
end job; but she didn’t care much!
It was at this point that I turned to
smoking cigarettes far more frequently than just the odd one outside the pub
before a night out. I began to rely on them, more and more, and if I didn’t get
a nicotine fix I'd begin to get increasingly restless. I realised that all the
money that I should have been spending on real problems just as paying the
bills etc., was being floundered in increasing quantities.
It was around about this time that I came
across electronic cigarettes;
fascinating devices because they proclaimed to save me money at the same time
as being healthier. I can tell you this, they worked. I saved lots of money,
and cut out tobacco from my life for good (electronic cigarettes only have vapor with liquid nicotine, are legal indoors and contain no tobacco).
I had saved lots of money, was financially
better off and healthier, and it was perhaps this fact that affected my mental
health too. I had begun to feel positive again.
When my girlfriend came back from traveling, naturally she was skint. She came back and expected to walk back
into my life and our house and it was something I wasn't ready for. I tried to
make her understand, which she didn’t. we have not spoken since. I had tried to
just give myself some space to think, but inadvertently ended up giving myself
a new start in life. I had got myself into a position where this conflict, this
tension, had boiled over but it ended up being just the trigger I needed. Post
this, I have completely recovered my mental balance, and are beginning to enjoy
my life once again.
There are many influential people I can
think of and situations that have occurred that I can attribute this to but I
would have to go back to the confrontation with my returning girlfriend, that
was the trigger in me really getting myself together. Sometimes standing up for
yourself, and revisiting past demons is what you need to do to overcome a
sticky situation that you get yourself into mentally.
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